Baby Loss Awareness Week

Baby Loss Awareness Week starts today with a series of events across the country to give an opportunity for parents, families and friends to commemorate and to create an opportunity to raise awareness and talk more openly about miscarriage, stillbirth and loss.

On October 15 at 7pm, you can join in the wave of light by lighting a candle to remember all the babies that have died too soon. There is more information on the Baby Loss Awareness website and there will be remembrance events held across the country. Details are posted below, but you should double check times and locations on the website.

Aldershot – St Michael and St George Church, Queen’s Avenue, Aldershot. Thursday 12 October 7 pm.

Aldershot – Aldershot Baby Garden, The Park Crematorium Guildford Road, Aldershot. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:45 pm.

Ashford – Ashford Memorial Gardens, Ashford. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:45 pm.

Banbury – St Mary’s Church, Banbury. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:30 pm.

Barking – Town Hall. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:30 pm.

Belfast – Malone House, Barnett Demesne, Belfast. Balloon release Sunday 15 October 2 – 4 pm.

Boroughbridge – St James’ Church, Boroughbridge, North Yorkshire. Monday 9 October 7 pm.

Bristol – City Hall, College Green, Bristol. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 5 pm – 6 pm. Email Bristol Sands with queries.

Canvey Island – St Nicholas Church. Sunday 15 October 6:30 pm.

Cardiff – Wenallt Chapel at Thornhill Crematorium, Cardiff. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6.45 – 7.15 pm. Email Cardiff and Newport Sands with queries.

Carshalton – St Helier Hospital. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 7 – 10 pm.

Chesterfield – Brimington Crematorium. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:45 – 8 pm.

Coventry – Coventry Cathedral. A Service of Remembrance Sunday 15 October 2 pm.

Cramlington – Northumberlandia. Wave of Light Candle Walk Sunday 15 October 6:30 pm. Please note booking required call 07531 206784.

Devizes – St.James Church, Devizes. A Service of Remembrance Sunday 15 October 4:30 pm.

Edinburgh – The Sanctuary, St Catherine’s Argyle, Edinburgh. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:15 pm

Glasgow – The Memorial Chapel, Main Building, Gilmorehill Campus, University of Glasgow, Chapel Corridor (South), West Quadrangle, Glasgow. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:15 pm.

Gosport – St. John the Evangelist, Forton Road, PO12 4TQ. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:30 pm.

Greenhithe – Bluewater. Wave of Light Lantern Walk Sunday 15 October 6:45 – 8 pm.

Guernsey – Guernsey Sands Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Walk Sunday 15 October 10 am.

Guildford – Halfpenny Lane, Guildford. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 5:30 – 8 pm.

Harrogate – St Mary’s Chapel, St Peter’s Church, Harrogate Tuesday 10 October 10 am – 12:30 pm.

Isle of Man – Douglas Promenade. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:30 pm.

Leeds – Church of the Epiphany, 227 Beech Lane, Gipton, Leeds. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:45 pm.

Liverpool – Isla Gladstone Conservatory, Stanley Park, L4 0TD. A Service of Remembrance Wednesday 11 October registration of babies names from 5 pm and service at 6:30 pm.

London – Haringay Parkland. Candlelit Walk Sunday 15 October meet at Finsbury Park Station entrance to Finsbury Park at 4:30 pm to walk from 4:45 pm. Email North and East London Sands

London – Trafalgar Square, London. Walk Of Baby Loss Remembrance Saturday 14 October 5:30 – 7:30 pm.

Ludlow – St. Laurence’s Church, Ludlow. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:30 pm.

Mansfield – Pilgrim Centre, Mansfield Community Hospital. Making memories workshop Sunday 15 October 2:30 pm – 4:30 pm. Email Maxine

Middlesborough – St. Hilda of Whitby, Grangetown. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 7 pm.

Newburgh – Newburgh Parish Church, Fife. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:30 pm.

Norwich – City Hall, Norwich. Sunday 15 October.

Nottingham – Memory Walk, Wollaton Hall and Deer Park, Nottingham. Saturday 14 October 11 am.

Oban – The Rockfield Centre, 53A Rockfield Road, Oban. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:30 pm.

Oldbury – Warley Baptist Church, Castle Road East, Oldbury. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:30 pm.

Plymouth – Little Haven Memorial Garden, Derriford Hospital, Plymouth. Service with candle lighting Monday 9 October 6:60 pm.

Plympton – Safe Haven, Harewood House, Plympton. Screening Still Loved documentary Tuesday 10 October 6 pm.

Portadown – St. Mark’s Church, Portadown. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:45 pm.

Portsmouth – Spinnaker Tower. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:30 pm

Reading – Reading Minster, Reading. Sunday 15 October 3 pm.

Rochester – Rochester Cathedral prayers at the Family Service 10:30am

Rochester – Baby Memorial Garden, Borstal Road, Rochester. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:45 pm.

Rudgwick – King George V Playing Fields car park and the Village Hall, Rudgwick RH12 3JJ. Information and awareness event hosted by Dandelion Farewells Monday 9 October 10:30 am – 2:30 pm.

Shetland – Toll Clock Shopping Centre, Lerwick. Saturday 14 October 9 am – 4 pm.

Swindon – Kingsdown Crematorium. Sunday 15 October 2 pm. Email Swindon Sands with queries

Thatcham – London Road Cemetery, Thatcham. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:30 pm.

Thurso – Thurso Baptist Church, 5 Millbank Road, Thurso (Caithness). Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:30 pm.

Truro – Truro Methodist Church. Sunday 15 October 2 pm.

Whitburn – Souter Lighthouse. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:15 pm.

Woking – St. Mary Of Bethany Church, Woking. Wave of Light Sunday 15 October 6:30 pm.

Wrexham – St Mary’s Cathedral, Wrexham. Baby Remembrance Service Sunday 8 October 3:30 pm.

York – Upstairs Lounge, The Gateway Centre, Acomb, York Wednesday 11 October 11:30 am – 1:30 pm.

Instagram for miscarriage support

Miscarriage is devastating, and often women find it hard to talk about so the idea of an Instagram account for women to come together to discuss their experiences may sound slightly bizarre – but in fact, many women have found the I Had a Miscarriage Instagram pages very helpful. It was started by a psychologist, Jessica Zucker, in 2015 and already has more than 17 thousand followers. The account has become a space for women to connect, to share their feelings and to read about the experiences of others.

Losing a baby is particularly difficult if you have been through fertility problems and treatment first, and if you have personal experience of this it is always worth getting in touch with the Miscarriage Association who can provide lots of information and support. The Miscarriage Association is currently running the brilliant Simply Say campaign to help other people understand more about what to say when a friend, colleague or family member has experienced a miscarriage.

Simply say…

If you’ve experienced pregnancy loss or have been uncertain what to say to a friend who has had a miscarriage, the new campaign from the Miscarriage Association will be welcome. They’re aiming to help people respond to someone who has been through a miscarriage or an ectopic or molar pregnancy. Often people are so worried about saying the wrong thing that they end up trying not to talk about the miscarriage at all, which isn’t a helpful response.

The Miscarriage Association campaign is called Simply Say and aims to make it easier for people to have the conversations that they sometimes avoid. They are encouraging family, friends and colleagues to acknowledge the loss and then to listen, and the campaign aims to help them to know what to say – and what not to say.

The charity has spoken to women and their partners about the things they’ve found helpful  and the things that can be particularly upsetting. They conclude that everyone is different and that it can be hard to find the right words to comfort someone, but acknowledging their loss is one way that you can help anyone who has been through this.  Simply saying that you are sorry is one of the most important things you can do.

The things that can be particularly upsetting are well-meant comments which aim to put a positive spin on the experience – for example “Don’t worry, you can always have another baby” or ““It wasn’t meant to be”. For people who have had a miscarriage after spending some time trying to get pregnant, it’s the “well, at least you know now that you can get pregnant” comments which can be really hurtful. Although people may just be trying to find something positive to say, it is particularly unhelpful when you may feel that you don’t know if you will be able to get pregnant again.

The Miscarriage Association have produced an animation and infographics as well as downloadable leaflet with more detailed information, and you can get involved in their #SimplySay campaign on social media. Do support this important campaign! 

Miscarriage

Thanks to The Guardian’s Hadley Freeman for this article about her experience of miscarriage. It is raw, honest and very moving, and she raises important questions about why it is that we don’t talk abut miscarriage. Why is it that women are often encouraged not to mention that they are pregnant until they reach 12 weeks because of the risk of miscarriage? It assumes that we would want to keep losing a baby secret, that it is something to be hidden and not talked about. For some people, this may make things easier but for many others, not being able to talk about something so heartbreaking can make it even harder to cope.

Miscarriage is devastating whenever it happens in pregnancy – and if you’ve taken time to get pregnant in the first place, it can feel even more overwhelming. If you, or anyone you know, is affected by miscarriage, the Miscarriage Association, can offer support and advice and is a really helpful source of information.

Do you want to run away from Mother’s Day?

It’s the run up which is just as bad as the event itself and it can seem as if there is no escape from Mother’s Day, but if you are anywhere near Liverpool on Sunday, there is something you may want to know about. It’s called the Mother’s Day Runaways service, will take place in the Lady Chapel at Liverpool Cathedral and it aims to offer a safe space for those who find Mothering Sunday difficult.

Whether you’re grieving the loss of a mother, the loss of a child, or a baby through miscarriage, whether you’re struggling with infertility or childlessness, singleness or a difficult relationship, whether you never even knew your mother or whether there is another reason why you might find Mothering Sunday painful, this quiet, reflective service has been designed with you in mind.

It will be an informal gathering, where you will be guided through an hour long service and you can find out more from Saltwater and Honey (and you can find out more about them here.

Leap In by Alexandra Heminsley

This is a book about swimming, about how Alexandra Heminsley overcame her fear of water and learnt not only to swim, but to enjoy swimming outdoors in choppy seas, cold rivers and dark tarns. Heminsley’s earlier book, Running Like a Girl, is about running when you don’t think you’re a runner and Leap In is the swimming version. It’s her honesty, the detail and her beautiful writing which make this such an engaging book; I could completely envisage the sweaty attempts to squeeze her body into a wetsuit, the feelings of panic in deep water, the anxiety about her bare feet when she does her first river swim.

Leap In is about pushing yourself, about facing up to difficulties – and we learn more than half-way through the book that Heminsley is going through fertility problems and IVF as she continues her swimming journey.  At that point, her battles to overcome her fears have an undercurrent of a more fundamental challenge.

Heminsley doesn’t tell us much about her fertility problems or the experiences of tests and treatment, but what she does say is rich with meaning for anyone who has been there. “When I think about never having a child, a sort of breathlessness, almost a vertigo, comes over me,” she writes, explaining in just one sentence the overwhelming hollow bleakness of infertility. She has a positive pregnancy test after her second IVF cycle, but miscarries – something she deals with in two poignant paragraphs in which she describes the sense of crushing grief and how this transforms her relationship with her body which she feels has betrayed her and which she now rejects.

I really love this book – it manages to be funny, sad, inspiring and thought-provoking. The last chapter of the first part ends with Heminsley pondering what lessons swimming has taught her and where her future lies. She says she doesn’t know if she will ever have a child, or even the strength to try IVF again, but her attitude to life is that we must Leap In, living life as a participant rather than a spectator, that we must not give into our fear of the unknown and must be courageous when we need to adapt or amend our plans and discover our inner strength and resilience. These are certainly thoughts to ponder for anyone who is in the midst of fertility problems.

Leap In is published by Hutchinson.

 

 

Leap In

If you haven’t already seen this fabulous article from The Guardian by Alexandra Heminsley, it is worth a read.

You may have come across Alexandra Heminsley before as she wrote a previous book, Running Like a Girl,, about her experiences of running (which I found really inspiring as someone who is not remotely sporty but who has discovered an unexpected love of running – albeit very slowly…).

This article is about her new book Leap In, which deals with swimming and fertility treatment. We learn that she has been through two rounds of treatment, one of which resulted in a positive pregnancy test followed by a miscarriage. There is always a feeling of connection when you read about someone going through fertility treatment – we all understand something that others never really can – and I found her article incredibly moving. She talks about her changing feelings as she goes through the unsuccessful treatment and miscarriage, about how she feels betrayed by her body and rejects it. Describing all this through a focus on swimming somehow makes it an even more powerful read. When she talks about the “sort of breathlessness, almost a vertigo” that comes over her when she thinks about never having a child, she captures in just a few words the vast hollow emptiness and fear which are so familiar to many of us.

I’ll be posting a book review soon, but in the meantime, do read the article.

Have you been affected by miscarriage?

If you have been affected by miscarriage, would you be able to help by completing a survey about priority setting around miscarriage? The link to the survey itself is here but if you are interested in reading more about it, this may be helpful from one of the lay members who has been sitting on the group leading the project.  The aim is to improve the care and treatment for women who experience miscarriage and those affected by it, and to set the priorities for research that will make the biggest difference.

Woman who have had a miscarriage themselves and their partners, family members, friends and colleagues are invited to complete the survey along with professionals involved  in caring for women who have experienced miscarriage and professional bodies, patient groups, charities and other organisations involved with miscarriage.

Getting pregnant at 49 – how it really happens…

120px-Pregnancy_test_resultWe’ve all seen the stories about babies born to celebrities in their late forties – or even fifties – with no mention of how they got pregnant. It can make it seem as if having a baby at an age when most women are on the verge of the menopause is effortless when in fact the celebrities concerned will almost certainly have used donor eggs in order to conceive.

Now Sonia Kruger has spoken out about this – and I admit, I hadn’t heard of her, but apparently she is an Australian television presenter who hosts Big Brother and is described by the Mail as a ” fashionable 49-year-old” (because of course not many 49 year olds are “fashionable”….). Responding to a magazine headline which referred to her “miracle pregnancy”, she has gone public about her history of fertility problems, miscarriage and the fact that she was told by doctors that for any woman over the age of 45 the chance of IVF success using their own eggs was zero. She says her pregnancy is  “science, not a miracle” and has been open about the fact that she needed donor eggs in order to get pregnant.

You can read more here and here

 

Pregnancy loss

I’ve only just seen this incredibly moving article in The Guardian about the experience of miscarriage – you don’t need to have been through the loss of a pregnancy yourself to empathise with this piece. It does make you think about how little other people appreciate or understand what it feels like to lose a baby – especially when this happens more than once. Well worth reading – thanks Amy for writing it.

If you are affected by miscarriage, the Miscarriage Association can offer really valuable help and support.